ashlee September 30, 2007

It’s been three days
You come around here like you know me
You’re stuff at my place
Next thing you know, you’ll be using my toothpaste
Step up, sit down
Get ready, let me tell you who’s the boss now
Stay here, get out
Everytime i turn around you’re in my face

Don’t care where you think you’ve been, and how you’re getting over
If you think you’ve got me found
Just wait it gets much colder

Here I am,
Perfect as I’m ever gonna be
You’ll see
Love me for me
Stick around,
I’m not the kinda girl you wanna leave
You’ll see
Love me for me

Shut up, come back
No i didn’t really mean to say that
I’m mixed up, so what
Yea you want me so you’re messed up too
I love you, I hate you
If you only knew what i’ve been through

My head is spinnin’
But my heart is in the right place
Sometimes it has to have its self a little earthquake

Here I am,
Perfect as i’m ever gonna be
You’ll see
Love me for me
Stick around,
I’m not the kinda girl you wanna leave
You’ll see
Love me for me

I’ve been waiting all my life
To finally find you
Just so i can push you away
And when you’re crawling over broken glass to get to me
That’s when i’ll let you stay

Oh, here I am
Perfect as i’m ever gonna be
You’ll see
Love me for me
Stick around,
I’m not the kinda girl you wanna leave
You’ll see
Love me for me
Love me for me

Whoa, here I am
Perfect as i’m ever gonna be
You’ll see
Love me for me
Stick around,
I’m not the kinda girl you wanna leave
You’ll see
Love me for me

Wow, so long never listen liao.  (:

Dear Steph

我知你听唔入耳架啦

你自己睇下

红色绿色

钟意一个人系唔系真系要咁盲目

个个叫住你停你系都要冲过去

连小学生都识啦

绿色系行红色系停

从小老师也加倍认真

来教导我步过红绿灯

右与左　必须清楚看真

哪管一次做错

也都可摧毁这生

何解我恋爱双倍残忍

从来是快乐过便不会侥幸

动作少　简单偏偏最深

我怎可以做过

最优秀路上行人

明明绿灯转眼变成红灯

假使相当勇敢怎可挽回自身

若要冲损伤怎可以不留痕

来又去要找的际遇未接近

明明绿灯转眼变成红灯

抬头前望去对面马路如此吸引

逐秒等心急总加倍的难行

难道我要必先壮烈地牺牲去换吻

其实你知架

换转我好似你咁样

盲钟钟咁撞埋去

你一定会闹醒我

你唔会架喎

你永远都睇得清清楚楚

左度右度

都唔敢行过去啦

谁想到走错死里逃生

才明白较没有梦想更不幸

若诞生　不好好开过心

也不可以被爱

我不过是像泥尘

明明绿灯转眼变成红灯

假使相当勇敢怎可挽回自身

若要冲损伤怎可以不留痕

来又去要找的际遇未接近

明明绿灯转眼变成红灯

抬头前望去对面马路如此吸引

逐秒等心急总加倍的难行

如夜了我衣衫太薄便归家靠路灯

明明绿灯转眼变成红灯

假使相当勇敢怎可挽回自身

若要冲损伤怎可以不留痕

来又去要找的际遇未接近

明明绿灯转眼变成红灯

抬头前望去对面马路如此吸引

逐秒等心急总加倍的难行

如夜了我衣衫太薄便归家靠路灯

大家望住条马路

永远都觉得对面既野系最吸引既

你冲过去对面去搵你最钟意既人

而我就停系红绿灯面前

唔肯定我系唔系真系钟意对面果个人

已经第十次转灯啦

我开始发觉自己

分唔清楚红色同绿色

不如你提下我呀

my favourite song atm!! (:

September 30, 2007

- Pick your birth month.
- Strike out anything that doesn’t apply to you.
- Bold the five-ten that best apply to you.

MAY:
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered. Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings. Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint. Needs no motivation. Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding. Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good imagination. Good physical. Weak breathing. Loves literature and the arts. Loves traveling. Dislike being at home. Restless. Not having many children. Hardworking. High spirited. Spendthrift.

September 28, 2007

People are so disappointing, sometimes.

I’m not going to say exactly why. But seriously…

I feel awful for being awful to some people.

And I feel awful that some people are being mean to me.

AHHH.

SORRY THIS IS IN CODES COS’ IT’S NOT NICE TO WRITE NAMES.

SORRY PLX GO AWAY. ESPECIALLY IF YOU THINK I’M TALKING ABOUT YOU.

Amg la I’m seriously feeling so annoyed. I wish things would be the same as they were in sec 3. Again.

Maybe I’ve forgotten all the sad things that ever happened then. But FOR NOW, all I remember is how happy and fun it was. Emo angsting whatever then wasn’t even as torturous as it is now.

Teenage angst? All I wanna say is – wtf. go away. (to all those who dismiss it as teenage angst)

Sorry, don’t say I can always talk to you, cos’ it’s all crap. Where are you?

Do you really want to listen?

Do you judge when I say stuff? And keep all quiet until my back is turned.

Sometimes I really wonder if it’s better to have many friends and feel welcomed everywhere, or to have just 1 friend that you really know and understand, even if you’re both ostracised by the rest of the world.

I’m not trying to be cynical. I can’t help it.

Don’t you ever wonder?

A.m.g. -Seriously-

Wtf.

I want to rant. I want to complain. I want to do so many things. But no, nobody is free for me anyway.

I’m not even free for myself.

It’s not that nobody cares, but everyone just has his/her own opinions. And sometimes that makes it so hard for others to understand what you’re talking about, or how you feel.

They always say, yeah I understand.

No they sure as shit don’t.

Don’t. ever. say you know.

And it’s even worse when they think they know what’s going on, and they conceive this fabulous story about what might have happened.

Damn. I don’t want to use vulgarities but I’M SO ANNOYED.

AHHHH.

Don’t ask me about it cos’ I’m not going to say anything but I just want to LET EVERYONE KNOW MY FRUSTRATIONS. GO AWAY AHHH.

and seriously, if you think it’s funny when I emo, or when I’m upset. or if you think I’m a silly little girl who knows nothing. or if you think I’m an attention whore cos’ I emo on my blog.

you’re not my friend. you don’t know me. at all.

So go away?.

-

As I walk away
I look over my shoulder
To see what I’m leaving behind

Pieces of puzzles
And
Wishes on eyelashes fail

Oooooh!
How do I show all the love
Inside my heart

Well this is all new
And I’m feeling my way through the dark

And I used to talk
With honest conviction
Of how I predicted my world
I’m gonna leave it to to star gazers
Tell me what your telescope says

Oh what is in store for me now?
It’s coming apart

I know that it’s true
’cause I’m feeling my way through the dark

Try to find a light on somewhere
Try to find a light on somewhere
I’m finding I’m falling in love with the dark over here

Oh oh what do I know I don’t care
Where I start

For my troubles are few
As I’m feeling my way through the dark
Through the dark
I’m feeling my way through the dark

September 24, 2007

	Your Life Path Number is 22 Your Life Path Number represents the path you should take through life and the talents and skills you have to make your journey a rewarding one.You are builder on a grand scale and possess lofty ideals aimed at improving our world. Whether you build structures or governments or organizations, you will turn your dreams into reality. Regardless of the arena you choose, you will be deemed an expert in your field and inspire others to be their very best.
	Your Life Destiny Number is 3 Your Destiny Number sheds light on those things you must accomplish in your life to be fulfilled.Your destiny is to create, and inspire others to create. You were meant to express yourself, to share the joys of creation with others, imbibe those fortunate enough to know you with the powers of creation and the joys of unbridled enthusiasm.
	Your Soul Number is 2 Your Soul Number describes your deepest desires and dreams and the person you truly want to be.Your inner desire is to create harmony and balance. You loath conflict and will do anything to avoid or resolve problems. You are warm and loving, and your skills at solving the problems of others is a blessing to us all.
	Your Personality Number is 1 Your Personality Number reveals the “external you”–the personality traits others will know you by.As is fitting with the number 1’s prime directive to lead, those with a 1 personality number have the qualities of a natural born leader. They are the alphas of the pack and stand out in any group. They are confident, self-reliant and courageous. They are also blessed with a mind capable of formulating innovative solutions to old and new problems alike. As long as the 1 personality does not become overbearing and dogmatic, they should always find themselves in the position for which they were born: the head of the pack.
	Your Maturity Number is 7 Your Maturity Number reveals the person you will come to be–your true self.A 7 Maturity Number marks a life lived following a path that is divergent from that of others. You will spend your life seeking the truth behind everything. In your later years you will continue to pursue knowledge of your inner-self and universal truths. People will seek you out for your knowledge.
The 4 Pinnacles Pinnacles represent moments in your life in which you realize current goals and learn some of life’s lessons. If you are at the beginning of a Pinnacle, then they can be used as a predictive tool to assist in managing your future. Your first Pinnacle begins at birth and last until around the age of 27. Your Second Pinnacle last through the next 9 year and the Third Pinnacle last for 9 years after the Second Pinnacle has passed. Your Fourth Pinnacle picks up where the Third Pinnacle ends and last throughout the rest of your life
	Your First Pinnacle Number is 4You are in a period where you should be building a solid foundation on which to carry on your life. You may be building a home, family or career. Whatever you are doing, it is not a time in which you will or should take it easy.
	Your Second Pinnacle Number is 8An 8 Pinnacle is a time in which you will learn to apply power and authority in an effective way. In this period you should master the basic skills to become a good leader: organization, management and hopefully the application of justice for all.
	Your Third Pinnacle Number is 3You are at a time in life where the door to self-expression is ready to open. This should be a very creative period for you during which you also develop strong friendships and learn to speak from your heart.
	Your Fourth Pinnacle Number is 5A number 5 Pinnacle is a time of change. This is period in which you will cast off restraints and develop your personal freedom. You will learn to be flexible and adaptable, to hold your ground and not run from the changes which confront you. A number 5 Pinnacle is a time of change. This is period in which you will cast off restraints and develop your personal freedom. You will learn to be flexible and adaptable, to hold your ground and not run from the changes which confront you.
The 4 Challenges Challenges denote personal weaknesses and temptations you will have to overcome and strengths you will have to develop to fully realize your goals. The 4 Challenges have the same time frame as the 4 Pinnacles.
	Your First Challenge Number is 3The Challenge the number 3 puts before you is to learn to speak truly from your heart. You will have to overcome the negative traits of the number 3, which include superficiality, hyperbole, egocentrism, gossiping and disorganization.
	Your Second Challenge Number is 1A 1 Challenge signifies the struggle to become independent, courageous and have faith in your convictions. If the number 1 appears as your first Challenge you are learning to define your self. Should a 1 appear in your other Challenges you are learning to remain true to your self and become more confident.
	Your Third Challenge Number is 2Your Challenge is to learn how to manage your natural sensitivity to others, aversion to conflict and need for harmony in a way that will not repress your own needs. In time you will learn to balance your needs with those of others.
	Your Fourth Challenge Number is 4Your challenge is to learn the value of practicality, discipline and organization. A 4 challenge is rarely easy. You may find yourself boxed in by boundaries. In this period you will have to learn to be patient, open-minded and flexible.
The 3 Cycles Cycles occur in 28 year periods. The First Cycle last from birth through your 28th year and is called your Formative or Seed Cycle. The Second Cycle–your Productive or Fruit Cycle–begins at age 29 and last through your 56th year. The Third Cycle, your Harvest Cycle, begins with the coming of your 57th year and last throughout the rest of your life. Your Cycle Numbers tell you the lessons you must learn and goals you must meet to stay on your Life’s Path and achieve your true destiny.
	Your First Cycle Number is 5Change and the development of personal freedom are the earmarks of a 5 Cycle. You will find fulfillment and joy in the adventures this Cycle holds for you. This Cycle will show you life at its most exciting.
	Your Second Cycle is 8An 8 cycle marks a time that is opportune for you to succeed in attaining your goals. During this Cycle you will of course face setbacks and obstacles, but if you keep trying to move forward, your goals will be achieved.
	Your Third Cycle Number is 9Those in a 9 Cycle will see their compassion and tolerance for others blossom. You will find satisfaction in putting the greater good for all ahead of your own needs. This is a cycle in which you will explore the depths of your love for your fellow man.
	Your Birthday Number is 8 This number is most influential between your 28th and 56th year. While it is not the most important number in your profile, it does have an effect on your Life’s Path and Destiny.You have a very strong character and the skills to be a successful leader. Regardless of the arena you choose, you should rise to the forefront.
	Your Personal Year Number is 4 This number tells you what is happening in your life this year. This number should be used to help you avoid setbacks and focus your energies on those areas of your life where you are most likely to achieve your goals.This a year in which you will take on the manager. It is a time to put things in order and lay the foundation for your future. This is also a time in which you should pay close attention to your health.
	Your Personal Month Number is 8 This number tells you what is happening in your life this month. Use this number in the same way you would your Personal year number, but apply it only to the current month.This is a time for you to take things seriously and ensure all aspects of your life are moving in Make time to be alone and allow yourself to evaluate where your life is going.

September 19, 2007

Math is my newest enemy.

Don’t ask why, and don’t not believe. Cos I’ll just ask you to screw off.

And my newest bff is mediafire.

BFF!!<33

Go away, the rest of you.

Kidding.

Or not. ):

Aiya, I’m talking to myself like a big fat retard byebye.