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interviews ah??? April 28, 2008

Filed under: life — michelle @ 6:08 pm
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I’m terribly amused at my own ability to handle crap interviews so well!!

Oh well, but I guess my interview questions were out of the norm, and might serve to help people who’re preparing for the interview and looking for possible questions to ponder over (before you actually sit in front of them.)

Firstly, the setting was horrifying. (No la, except I was wearing slippers with a skirt so I was really hoping for a table to hide my legs)

Basically the rooms were rather big, and they were seated quite far away. So you were left EXPOSED!! (the horrors). My toenails were painted metallic blue, peeking out magnificently from the mere shelter of my slippers.

Outfit fail – check one.

Secondly, I was so sleepy before my 2nd interview that I forgot to greet them. (Well, I thought the hosts should greet first before the guest but clearly I was wrong.) I got a very disapproving glance, and someone prompted me to return the greeting with a haughty yet questioning “Good afternoon.”

Well, good afternoon to you too!

It was my fault, I admit. The outfit was my fault too. But my toenail had kindly detached itself till it resembles an open book now and I couldn’t bear to tear the entire thing out, so I wrapped it up with much love. Closed shoes were definitely no-no but well, I didn’t explain myself because I don’t want to be extra =)

Then came the questions which expected me to know what doctors do in diagnosis and basically during the consultation with patients. But it is rather ridiculous to me. A person working in a clinic (at the counter) can’t be expected to know what doctors know do they? I hate it when adults gave me the “there! You aren’t sure of your interests. You don’t even know your facts!”

But honestly, if I knew, I’d be practising. People would be able to practise without going through the “very tough 5 years” but instead, all they had to do was to shadow, and perhaps know how to dispense.

Clearly.

I know there are times when I should humble myself in front of people who (think they) know better. And I really tried.

The previous interview I went at the same unnamed prestigious school also had haughty interviewers, one of whom couldn’t even be bothered to show the basic respect and slouched in his chair, one legged propped up as if he was the CEO of some company listening to a fly reporting about his discoveries in the pantry. The other was just too proud of a (very) few handful of students who had made it “big”, and who, constantly compared what I planned for myself, with their achievements.

When will they ever learn that being in a position of authority doesn’t necessarily mean that they actually deserve the authority?

Nonetheless, I’m of absolutely no authority to criticize them.

They are, after all, older and wiser.

They are adults.

There is no humility involved in occupations where we are supposed to show that characteristic.

I was reading a particular management book, where the author had over 40 years of experience working with people of various managerial positions in several fields. Out of the hundreds of high position managers he had worked with, only two struck him as the real kind of leader everyone needs. They were the only ones who really bothered about both people above and beneath him in the corporate ladder. Others simply sucked up to the top and stepped on the others below him.

We are, but measly flies in the eyes of (some) professionals.

Humility is an ideal characteristic, but I can (gladly) say that most people I know don’t show it.

I know I don’t.

But seeing as I am out of point here, I shall elaborate more on the horrifying interview and hopefully this will help others.

Secondly (a continuation to my Firstly above), I was questioned about the “recent” events in the newspapers. Hence I mentioned the regulation of aesthetic medicine etc. I got bombed a few questions regarding that but it was all fine. Such things are common sense.

Then, I realised (with much amusement) that the “current” news that I was supposed to mention was regarding the baby boomers that will pose a substantial strain on current healthcare provisions.

Honestly, this problem was identified decades ago.

And honestly, it isn’t really current.

Besides the fact that a new hospital is going to be built, and that from calculations it is highly impossible that the current schemes and plans will be sufficient to take care of these baby boomers, I really don’t know what else is new.

Please enlighten me. I am sorry I haven’t been reading newspapers in detail. I do browse through the papers though.

And I’m not sure if -anyone else- knows what itemised receipts are, but don’t bother mentioning it. They, don’t, know, either.

And for the separation of dispensing of medicine from clinical consultation, it isn’t important either.

What matters is what they are involved in.

I can’t be too sorry that I don’t know the things I’m not in direct contact with, can I?

Honestly, I am full of rage and amusement.

The end result of that smörgåsbord of emotions is that I am utterly confused but relieved that my ordeal is over.

The experience hasn’t been a pleasant one, and the resultant impression I have on these professionals has certainly gone down.

You think you’re king, well so do I.

PS: I’m really sorry I can’t provide anyone with more unbiased description of my experience. It was just, that.

PPS: My birthday is coming!!! I saw this book I’ve been meaning to read since forever!! “The Time Traveller’s Wife”.

PPPS: Wii games are welcome too!! We only have 6 or 7 now. Preetttyy please.

PPPPS: I’m really not thick-skinned. And I don’t know what PPS or PPPS or PPPPS mean.

xoxo,

I don’t mind Gossip Girl books also. HAHA

 

dreams April 28, 2008

Filed under: life — michelle @ 8:31 am
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are my reality (:

Haha.

I had an awesome dream last night about uh, 陈小春。I didn’t even know I liked him.

Haha!!

Anyway, I was taking some fabulously cool rollercoaster ride ( >: haven’t taken one in YEARS, literally) which was super duper fun cos it was in some princessy castle (LOL) and the slopes were really steep.

And he was my servant.

(hohoho)

Anyhow, my interview is today. And after yesterday’s (awesome) essay, I sincerely hope they lost my script and hence are unable to shoot questions based on my essay.

Please please please.

It sucks to have an inactive brain. Spent 15 minutes stoning, attempting hard to think about the question O..O My only consolation was that most people around me were also stumped for awhile.

But that could be their writing styles T_T

Sigh!!

I wrote 3.5 pages and my dad was like WHAT?!? WRITE SO MUCH?? Me: Uh, I had alot of time cos nothing to write… To which he replied, “write so much rubbish for what.”

Hahaha!

Never mind.

I’m fine. =D

Just worried about the 1h of bian-ing I’m going to suffer later. I know nuts about everything lol but it’s my own fault haha. I have approximately 1h more to read up so I won’t have my interview shortened by 50%. (But maybe that’s not a bad idea =S)

Anyhow, I haven’t decided whether to accept or not.

I mean, I don’t have a multitude of first-choice choices to choose from, but I just can’t seem to weigh the pros and cons of the choices I have.

I’m only 18!!

Take care people yo

 

赛翁失马焉知非福 April 26, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — michelle @ 11:21 pm

I’ve always liked to think that although I am really lucky, I’m never as lucky as some other people.
But I’m wrong!
Past few weeks have been really awful for me and I haven’t been in the mood to do anything, simply because everything I did went wrong.
I’m not living a fulfilling life the way I really want to be.
I’m not having the foresight I should have.
I’m not making awesome decisions.
I didn’t see that my life was pretty damn perfect already.
Instead, all I saw was the flaws and imperfections in the little things I did.
The failures and everything all served to set me back, or so I thought.
But then today was good. I’m glad I stayed home, and for the first time in a long time, our family sat at a table (at home) for dinner together! Everything else was cancelled. (:

The other day I was talking to myself (i.e. reflecting) and wondering why some people always seem so happy.
Maybe it’s because instead of focussing on how lousy their lives are (like me), they cherish every happy thing that happens to them.
Instead of thinking about how people don’t care about you, they think about how others do care for them through the little things they do.
Rather than harp on things that upset them, perhaps they do things they enjoy to take their minds off.
Or maybe, they just choose to see all the good things in life.
I’m really extremely happy now.
See ya people!

PS: My family is really happy la! Haha it’s just that due to renovations we haven’t been able to have homecooked food in a loooong time! (:

 

i let memes define me. April 25, 2008

Filed under: Uncategorized — michelle @ 1:43 pm

I’m craving a Caramel Frappe. And oddly enough my favourite part of it is the whipped cream.

TECHNOLOGY
Q. What is your wallpaper on your computer?
I just changed it to a picture of Finland. Was OTH (Hayley/James) for a long time though.

Q. How many televisions do you have in your house?
4

BIOLOGY
Q. Are you right-handed or left-handed?
Right

Q. Have you ever had anything removed from your body?
One tooth. I think..

Q. What is the last heavy item you lifted?
Me.

Q. Have you ever been knocked out?
Nope.

BULLSHITOLOGY
Q. If it were possible, would you want to know the day you were going to die?
Yes.

Q. If you could change your name, what would you change it to?
I don’t have any in mind now, used to be “Leah”

Q. What color do you think looks best on you?
Black? I’ve no idea, really. I like checked stuff.

Q. Have you ever swallowed a non-food item?
Do plastic wrappers count?

DAREOLOGY
Q. Would you kiss a member of the same sex for $100?
Yeah, I might. Haha.

Q. Would you allow one of your little fingers to be cut off for $200,000?
Hell no.

Q. Would you never blog again for $50,000
Yeah. I’ll just write in a diary.

Q. Would you pose naked in a magazine for $250,000?
No.

Q. Would you drink an entire bottle of hot sauce for $1000?
Yeah.

Q. Would you, without fear of punishment, take a human life for $1,000,000?
No.

DUMBOLOGY
Q: What is in your left pocket?
Nothing.

Q: Is Napoleon Dynamite actually a good movie?
No idea.

Q: Do you have hardwood or carpet in your house?
Uh, parquet?

Q: Do you sit or stand in the shower?
Stand.

Q: How many pairs of flip flops do you own?
2.

LASTOLOGY
Q: Last person who texted you?
Mob

Q: Last person who called you?
Mom.

Q: Person you hugged?
Don’t remember.

FAVORITOLOGY
Q: Number?
23 (omg the previous person put 8!! I like.)

Q: Season?
Fall.

Q: Color?
Red.

CURRENTOLOGY
Q: Missing someone?
Yeah.

Q: Mood?
Annoyed. (Lol, I’m always annoyed.)

Q: Listening to?
Superwoman haha. iTunes random.

Q: Watching?
My monitor.

Q: Worrying about?
Getting everything done on time.

Q: Wearing?
House tee + fbts

RANDOMOLOGY
Q: First place you went this morning?
Kitchen.

Q: What can you not wait to do?
Getting everything done on time.

Q: Do you smile often?
Yes, I laugh often too.

Q: Are you a friendly person?
Not particularly.

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What Privileges Do You Have?, based on an exercise about class and privilege developed by Will Barratt, Meagan Cahill, Angie Carlen, Minnette Huck, Drew Lurker, and Stacy Ploskonka at Illinois State University. If you participate in this blog game, they ask that you PLEASE acknowledge their copyright.

Bold the true statements. Explain if you want.

1. Father went to college
2. Father finished college
3. Mother went to college
4. Mother finished college
5. Have any relative who is an attorney, physician, or professor.
6. Were the same or higher class than your high school teachers. (?)
7. Had more than 50 books in your childhood home.
8. Had more than 500 books in your childhood home. Mostly my dad’s.
9. Were read children’s books by a parent
10. Had lessons of any kind before you turned 18
11. Had more than two kinds of lessons before you turned 18

12. The people in the media who dress and talk like me are portrayed positively (?)
13. Had a credit card with your name on it before you turned 18 (haha minimum age here is 18.)
14. Your parents (or a trust) paid for the majority of your college costs
15. Your parents (or a trust) paid for all of your college costs
(I’m guessing…)
16. Went to a private high school
17. Went to summer camp
18. Had a private tutor before you turned 18
19. Family vacations involved staying at hotels
20. Your clothing was all bought new before you turned 18
21. Your parents bought you a car that was not a hand-me-down from them
22. There was original art in your house when you were a child

23. You and your family lived in a single-family house
I realise 24 is missing.
25. You had your own room as a child
26. You had a phone in your room before you turned 18 (but I asked for it to be removed so I wouldn’t have to answer calls.)
27. Participated in a SAT/ACT prep course
28. Had your own TV in your room in high school
29. Owned a mutual fund or IRA in high school or college
30. Flew anywhere on a commercial airline before you turned 16
31. Went on a cruise with your family
32. Went on more than one cruise with your family
33. Your parents took you to museums and art galleries as you grew up
34. You were unaware of how much heating bills were for your family

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10 bands you have been listening to a lot lately:

Melee
Five for Fighting
Queen
The Feverfew
Metric
Fahrenheit
Guster
Maroon 5
Train
Switchfoot

9 things you look forward to:

Getting stuff done
Family holiday before life gets busy
Birthday so I’ll be 19. Prime numbers are love.
Email replies.
Finalising stuff
Lunch.
June.
Retirement
Travelling around the world

8 things you like to wear:

Flipflops
fbts
Watch.
shorts
Anything checked and cute
black colored stuff
contacts
hairbands

7 things that annoy you:

waking up early
annoying people
disagreements
liars
smokers
slow computers / disconnections
hot weathers

6 things you say most days:

damn it
whatever
screw
sigh
huh
stupid

5 things you do everyday:

eat
bathe
brush teeth
sleep
stone

4 people you want to spend more time with:

my family

3 movies you could watch over and over again:

The Parent Trap
Edward Scissorhands
Titanic

2 of your favorite songs at the moment:

Bad Day
5:19

1 person you could spend the rest of your life with:

(:

 

why is happiness so transient April 22, 2008

Filed under: life — michelle @ 11:04 pm
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for me, anyway?

Damn, I was supposed to be happy.

But this morning I was in an awful mood.

And it lasted through to the afternoon.

Watched The Forbidden Kingdom which took my mind off things, but an 8+ minute call during the movie made me upset again.

Was annoyed again because I got screwed for some stuff. (Okay, my fault, I admit.)

Am feeling really helpless and useless because I haven’t done anything right since time immemorial.

Then I opened an email which had a “I bet you’ll open me” title. Turned out to be spam (as I guessed but seriously, I’m just kaypoh like that).

Now I’m even more annoyed because another day has passed and I haven’t even sat down to think properly.

Plus a message just came 5 minutes ago, annoying the hell out of me.

Honestly.

I am screwed up.