life’s unbelievable February 24, 2009

I had a funny dream last night.

Dreamt that you talked to me, and that I was the last to know everything. It was seriously a mixed happy/sad feeling.. But I was so glad that you actually told me. ):

It’s so sad to drift away from your friends and awkward silences fill what used to be endless banters.

Am working on something but I’ve no inspiration to continue, don’t even have a vague idea of what it should mean. I just have a beginning and things I want to include.

Thanks vanessa for the card (: I just got it yesterday hahaha <3

have you ever? February 17, 2009

Have you ever felt so alone, even when the people who (you think) matter are around you?

Have you ever felt so stupid, even when you’ve done nothing (exceedingly) silly?

Have you ever felt so hopeless, because everything you do seems to be wrong?

Have you ever felt so useless, because you’ve always put your trust in the wrong people?

Have you ever felt so scared, because nobody understands you and nobody tries to?

Have you ever felt so helpless, because you want people to reach out to you but you shrink further back into your shell when they do?

Have you ever felt any of these things that I’m feeling right now?

I’m really afraid.

별 February 17, 2009

I miss looking forward to school because of the people I’ll see..

I miss studying subjects I actually had interest in, and knowing how to do them / having the motivation to find out how to do.

I miss having friends who I can rely on anytime.

I miss the senseless gigglings and gossips.

I miss the constant drone of lessons which were boring but routine.

I miss the mindless obsession with stars,  snow, and rain.

I miss seeing all of you. ):

I need a hug, and for you to say “Everything’s gonna be alright”.

we study hard. February 15, 2009

this is how we study

(:

ain’t school pretty?

time flies February 14, 2009

1 year ago, I was working at some dumb company which hired me to sit at my desk to pick up calls, and then re-route them to the various “departments”. And I received flowers (L) which my manager was jealous of and she gave me work 2 minutes before I was supposed to leave so that I could accompany her.

2 years ago, I was in school but it was a Wednesday so class ended early and I probably came home early after watching the singing thingy by ge chuang in the canteen (: or maybe I stayed in school to talk with galpals ahaha. I don’t remember… but school was filled with balloons and flowers.

3 years ago, it was a school day too and I baked stuff for people in school. (: Had CCA that day, I remember. And H3 too. Went home reaallly late.

Time really flies!! I can’t believe I’m where I am now, and I can’t believe we’re all (hitting) 20.

I was so afraid that life would be drastically different once we left the sheltered JC life, but not much has seemed to change. Guys here are the same, haha I suppose NS doesn’t do much to ones maturity. =p Work is basically the same except sometimes I feel as if I’d gone back to Primary and Secondary schools, what we compulsory modules that bore the shit out of you and teach nothing (or rather, attempt to teach things that shouldn’t be taught by amateurs. Having a university degree doesn’t make someone an authority in any field, especially rubbish fields like these.)

My life is rather segmented, but I’m so thankful for all the friends I have. (:

And I was actually going to like, put names up here BUT I realised that if I happened to leave some names out it’ll be reaallly bad. So.

To my SMU friends I love you. There aren’t many of you hahahaha

To my RJ friends – I think you’re mostly from twock. (: I miss you guys. ):

To my RG friends – 413! Best class ever, and my table clique – trix, char, yihui )): why’re all of you in NUS??

To my Secondary school days friends – I think you guys are mostly guys. Hahaha, miss hanging out with you people.

To my TNS friends – Man.. I really miss those days. ): But I think most of my pri school friends became my friends after we left tns. So.. (: Glad to have known you people for like 10 years. 10. years. We’re. old.

To my YPS friends – ): We don’t keep in touch anymore but I still remember you people!! Jasmine, Gracia, Yvonne, Michelle, Ben Chow, Yu Quan haha I loved those days, where I could speak in Mandarin fluently. Those days.

And now, I should do my TWC assignment.

Don’t you just hate TWC?