Had a short chat with my grandma today, really pretty enlightening.
People these days (us) seem to find the easy way out of everything. Our societies are so different from the rigid structured societies of the past, and yet we still complain.
Sometimes I wonder if having no choice makes life any easier for us. I keep telling a friend that I wished my life was planned out for me, because I have no idea what I want to do at all. But God knows we’ll complain if our lives are planned for us, like they were for the older generations. It wasn’t just for the Asian societies I believe, seemed more like a phase that has passed, into the “liberal” phase that we are in right now. I really wonder what societies will be like a century from now. or maybe 2 centuries from now.
I’ve been having awfully weird dreams lately, most of which can be classified under nightmares I suppose. ): and now I’m suffering from a severe lack of proper sleep.
You know how your parents would choose / judge people you bring home? Whether they’re just friends, or people you’re in a relationship with. And it’s so scary to know that when you go over to your friends’ places, their parents might just be doing the exact thing.
Sometimes, you’re the one that people don’t want their kids hanging out with.
My grandma believes in fate. I love how she comments on the smallest things in life, things that we wouldn’t even notice usually. Things that she notice because her experiences are different from us, and her attention is concentrated on things different from ours. I love how her words are so honest, so questioning, so sincere. And most of all I love how her mindset is so open and (what we’d term as) modern even though she belongs to the older generation.
I’ve been wondering about why things happened the way they did/do. Why people interact the way they do, and why some things work out so perfectly, while others fail so miserably. I honestly believe that our lives are all mapped out, but that our paths are only revealed to us with time. And I believe we do things because we’re meant to, and even when we face choices and make decisions – they’re supposed to happen too. Just like when you program things, “If this..then this.” I’m curious to see my whole life, but I wouldn’t want to.
Anyhow, I’ve a few resolutions:
- I’m gonna learn to cook. And have proper breakfast every single day.
- I’ll pack my wardrobe and choose the stuff that I want to bring along when I shift out (yippie).
- I’m so gonna put my domains to good use.
(: I’ve slightly over a month left to the end of holidays. 4 months of holidays isn’t as long as I thought. And I totally agree that the days pass by so slowly, but weeks and months fly past.
Why isn’t my life like a situation comedy? Why don’t I have a bunch of friends with nothing better to do but drop by and instigate wacky adventures? Why aren’t my conversations peppered with spontaneous witticisms? Why don’t my friends demonstrate heartfelt concern for my well being when I have problems? …I gotta get my life some writers.
