Wish. August 31, 2009

Speechless conversations could be an indicator of truly comfortable relationships, or it could very well be an indicator of struggling ones.

The fearful thing about relationships is, you may feel comfortable but the other parties might not. Where you feel happy sitting in silence, your partner could very well be worrying about the need to strike a conversation.

Occasionally, I sit around and imagine what it’ll be like to be someone else. I figure others might have wondered what it’ll be like to be me. And as I always conclude, the grass is often greener on the other side. Chances are that you wouldn’t even want to imagine being in the shoes of someone who, in your opinion, is in a worse-off state than you. That isn’t how jealousy works.

My friend (yeah you) said and i quote “maybe I didn’t want you so much as want to be you”. That snippet from our conversation still makes me laugh when I think about it. Thanks honey.

Do wishes come true, if you wish hard enough?

I crave peace, love and happiness. Please do not take them away from me ):

But maybe, “some of God’s greatest gifts are unanswered prayers.”

And a song I’d like to dedicate to all.

August 29, 2009

They always stare,
unrelenting knives piercing through
the feeble sheets you wrap around yourself.
They pry;
tearing through to feel you
but leave soon after.
They aren’t satisfied,
no, they seek something else;
someone else?

She is cold,
ice; almost marble-like.
Smooth, cold, and heartless.
Marble is hard,
stronger than flesh,
the bruises fade away
but you remember.

He was your buoy,
but it escaped and
all that’s left is a mess;
a crumpled mess watching you tread the waters
alone.

I should be growing stronger,
but just like a cookie I’m crumbling;
I’m not strong at all.

Things I’ll never say August 24, 2009

Life never fails to amaze or disappoint. Depends on our outlook in life I guess.

Someone told me that being optimistic adds a few years to your life, but I’ve a feeling this isn’t something we can control. It’s our character isn’t it?

Sometimes I wonder if our characters determine us, or do we determine our characters. If we force a change in ourselves, is it a permanent change or a temporary veil that we place over ourselves?

Somewhere out there someone is thinking of me, as I am thinking of someone this very instant. I do believe in that.

Love is an abstract concept and I’ve been hearing so many different definitions from people. My stand is that love differs for each person, just as happiness is.  Maybe it feels the same, but the elements that contribute to the particular feeling is different for each person.

Love is something you look forward to your whole life, from the time you’re born till your last breath?

Love is being happy when the person you love is happy. Why then, do we do things to hurt the people we love  at times? I’m so afraid of things sometimes, especially now when they look so happy together. Is what I’m seeing real? Or are they just tolerating..?

I’m afraid of the future, so much so that I make a wish everytime I see something special.

I believe.

clarification August 3, 2009

I’m not unhappy~! It’ s just that I blog more when I’m tired and sad or frustrated.

Oh well. Isn’t it the case for most people? And my happiness is not THAT big that I actually want to blog about it.

If that made any sense.

Driving again tomorrow. I’m getting tanned from the walk to and fro T_T

10 more days till my baby comes back yippiee~~