2009 October « swing life away

If I remember correctly, a friend who knew me a few years back was surprised that I was the author of a blog post he’d read and remembered, years back. Granted, we shared friends and the likelihood of something like this happening was not all that close to zero.

When I was 14, a friend gave me his school yearbook. And being the curious teenager I was (true reason), I flipped through it, looking for familiar faces. And 1 particular face stood out, even though I didn’t know him. I remembered his name, too. Coincidentally enough, he became the team-mate of some of my closest friends. And consequently (or not), he became my first real boyfriend.

And then if guy G had not been trying to woo a girlfriend of mine F, I’d never have gotten to know him. BUt he did, and somehow I got involved. It was really amazing, since I was completely anti-social at that time. But I made the effort to join in their activities. (: And G is now one of the handful of persons I know I can trust my secrets with. And I know he’ll be there for me too.

Another story with a dear friend never fails to amaze me at how life works. We’d never spoke(chat) with each other despite being on our MSN lists. And then we met at the same CIP, doing our shifts on the same days. (: Amazing since the probability of this happening is (give or take) 4%? (<- think my math is going down the drains, I can’t figure out if I did it correctly. haha.) And I’m so glad for this coincidences (or fate, as I’d put it). Because we are like twins in so many instances. I’ve told my mom about how alike we are and she is surprised, too. (or she appears to act that way anyway)

While some things just happen so easily (like because they’re meant to happen), others fail miserably no matter how much you try. Futility is not a myth. Just the other day I read a private private blog of mine, that perhaps nobody knows (because it’s a record of so many embarrassing thoughts). I’d done some stupid things to win the heart of this boy, who never was interested. Just as others had done some silly things to try for mine.

But we were all supposed to do these things we do. We were meant to try, and try, and then fail.

And one morning I woke up and I was sure. I was sure of something I never was, with you.

I never stop wondering how amazing it is to have known my boyfriend. If my friends (who incidentally, rarely speak with me now) hadn’t asked to bid together, I never would have chosen that class. If I hadn’t been so lazy, I’d have dropped the class and transferred to another. If he hadn’t sat right next to me staring at me throughout the lesson (true story, or so i’ve heard), I wouldn’t have mailed him. If he hadn’t had put such an un-foreign-ish name up, I might not have mailed him at all, because I’d have had no excuse to. (: And then he’d just be another classmate that I never knew.

But the experiences of one person alone doesn’t define the world. I know.

I feel like singing out loud now, I almost did. To the tune of Trouble is a friend.

But not now.

Love isn’t a fantasy.
You’re not wrong, you’re just wrong that it’s supposed to be me.

Comments (1)

October 19, 2009

Filed under: family, friends, life, meme — michelle @ 12:31 pm

Life’s been pretty awesome to me these days (: and I shan’t be the pessimist and assume bad things are coming.

Hahaha, yea right. (:

Met DOMDOM! on Saturday, wanted a picture or two but I forgot my camera so I couldn’t ): And I only have 1 picture of him (note: not even with). So I’m going to post it up.

Here’s a picture post of people I love dearly.