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I think brains are really sexy.

(:

I think that lying is one of the most hurtful things that anyone can do to someone they love/loved/someone who loves them.

Sometimes, we find out that some of the people around us knew us from before we officially met.

If I remember correctly, a friend who knew me a few years back was surprised that I was the author of a blog post he’d read and remembered, years back. Granted, we shared friends and the likelihood of something like this happening was not all that close to zero.

When I was 14, a friend gave me his school yearbook. And being the curious teenager I was (true reason), I flipped through it, looking for familiar faces. And 1 particular face stood out, even though I didn’t know him. I remembered his name, too. Coincidentally enough, he became the team-mate of some of my closest friends. And consequently (or not), he became my first real boyfriend.

And then if guy G had not been trying to woo a girlfriend of mine F, I’d never have gotten to know him. BUt he did, and somehow I got involved. It was really amazing, since I was completely anti-social at that time. But I made the effort to join in their activities. (: And G is now one of the handful of persons I know I can trust my secrets with. And I know he’ll be there for me too.

Another story with a dear friend never fails to amaze me at how life works. We’d never spoke(chat) with each other despite being on our MSN lists. And then we met at the same CIP, doing our shifts on the same days. (: Amazing since the probability of this happening is (give or take) 4%? (<- think my math is going down the drains, I can’t figure out if I did it correctly. haha.) And I’m so glad for this coincidences (or fate, as I’d put it). Because we are like twins in so many instances. I’ve told my mom about how alike we are and she is surprised, too. (or she appears to act that way anyway)

While some things just happen so easily (like because they’re meant to happen), others fail miserably no matter how much you try. Futility is not a myth. Just the other day I read a private private blog of mine, that perhaps nobody knows (because it’s a record of so many embarrassing thoughts). I’d done some stupid things to win the heart of this boy, who never was interested. Just as others had done some silly things to try for mine.

But we were all supposed to do these things we do. We were meant to try, and try, and then fail.

And one morning I woke up and I was sure. I was sure of something I never was, with you.

I never stop wondering how amazing it is to have known my boyfriend. If my friends (who incidentally, rarely speak with me now) hadn’t asked to bid together, I never would have chosen that class. If I hadn’t been so lazy, I’d have dropped the class and transferred to another. If  he hadn’t sat right next to me staring at me throughout the lesson (true story, or so i’ve heard), I wouldn’t have mailed him. If he hadn’t had put such an un-foreign-ish name up, I might not have mailed him at all, because I’d have had no excuse to. (: And then he’d just be another classmate that I never knew.

But the experiences of one person alone doesn’t define the world. I know.

I feel like singing out loud now, I almost did. To the tune of Trouble is a friend.

But not now.

Love isn’t a fantasy.
You’re not wrong, you’re just wrong that it’s supposed to be me.

Life’s been pretty awesome to me these days (: and I shan’t be the pessimist and assume bad things are coming.

Hahaha, yea right. (:

Met DOMDOM! on Saturday, wanted a picture or two but I forgot my camera so I couldn’t ): And I only have 1 picture of him (note: not even with). So I’m going to post it up.

Here’s a picture post of people I love dearly.

1.5 years ago. pre-eyeliner days i loved my fringe here but nobody else did

CNY uh 2007? I think.

korea trip hahaha back in 2005

my room before completion. think this was taken in week 4. the boxes are scary. and so is the uh movable thing.

really nice guy

one of my oldestest friends

Will post pictures of my new place this fri / sat hopefully!

meme below.

1. Single, taken or crushing?
taken

2. Are you happy with your life now?
yep.

3. When you meet the right person, do you fall in love with him/her fast?
yep

4. Have you ever been heart broken?
yeah
5. Do you believe that there are some circumstances, where cheating love is acceptable?
no..

6. Would you take someone back even if he/she cheats on you?
depends i know i will though

7. Have you talked about marriage to someone else before?
don’t think so

8. Do you want children?
ya ):

9. How many?
2 (:

10. Would you consider adoption?
yupp

11. If someone likes you now, what do you think is the best way for him/her to let you know his/her feelings?
tell me!

12. Do you enjoy getting into relationships?
yep

13. Do you believe in love at first sight?
yea

14. Do you believe you can change someone?
YES. hahaha

15. If you could get married somewhere, where would it be?
switzerland. during the christmas season!but anywhere would be lovely.

16. Do you give in easily when fighting?
not really

17. Do you have feelings for anyone now?
yess

18. Do you ever wish that you could have had someone but you messed it up?
uh?.

19. Have you ever broken a heart?
maybe.

20. If one day your best friend falls in love with the guy/girl you are deeply in love with, what will you do?
):

21. Are you missing anyone right now?
yeah

from: http://ambrosialpink.wordpress.com/2007/05/22/194/

Happiness is transient. It comes and goes. But at least it comes (:

(: 5th november.

I’ve lots to say but guess I’ll write another time.

我好害怕失去身边的人

好害怕发现爱与我根本毫无缘分

好害怕曾有的全都是一场空虚

好害怕忘记以前快乐的那段日子

好害怕精神崩溃那一天。

为什么人那么虚弱呢？

为什么人那么不珍惜身旁的一切呢？

为什么？

照片根本不是a true reflection of reality

照片都可能是虚假的

那我们收藏那些虚假的记忆又是为何呢?

And so much to say, but all I feel like doing is posting the results of a quiz I just took.

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Nature had given you a passion which is difficult to master. Not everyone reaches this mastery early on in life. In fact, chances are you are still trying to figure out how to control it. At times you feel as if your desires are consuming you, while other times you feel that your passion is so lacking it is bordering on apathy. These extremes are not healthy, and you must learn to live in a world in which both of these can coexist in a single moment. Life teaches us that we are to hone our talents into one outlet and command that aspect of our life fully. The trouble with you is that you have so many passions in so many areas that it becomes difficult to choose the one that suits you best. I challenge you to become a jack of all trades, and a master of none – for only then will your passions be satiated.

I corrected some grammatical errors. But honestly, I think this pretty much describes me.

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I was so happy, now I’m sad.

And tomorrow will be another day.

It’s so much easier to dish out advice, but so much harder to follow.

Why am I so weak?

It’s a surreal feeling to have people around you, knowing their hearts are not with you. It’s true, especially when you can feel it.

And the hurt is piercing.

It’s a sad feeling when you know people you love are keeping things from you. I used to wonder why people resorted to doing some hurtful things that they did, maybe now I understand. Just a little. The hurtful things they do can’t mask the hurt they feel inside, though.

And the hurt still continues.

It’s pitiful to hang onto someone, when you don’t have their heart anymore. But what can we do? Give up? No, we wouldn’t. Maybe, we still love the person. But maybe, there is no point in holding on, cos you’ve lost their heart already. That’s kind of selfish; to grab tightly onto someone, knowing they’ll be happier without you, or with someone else.

Does it hurt more if your loved ones left you because love was gone, or does it hurt more if your loved ones left you because of someone else?

Or maybe, there wasn’t love at all to start with.